a PeeK inTo the fuTuRe*

The list of Year 2 SSCs was being posted up yesterday and I have just read through them. My first reaction: ".............................."
Yeah, I am STUNNED. Perhaps confused and pressured are two other words which would aptly describe my reaction.

Choosing a topic to do for the SSC is not an easy task. You might want to consider what type it would be, the speciality, the objective, the grounds where it might be done..and..err..the tutor?! (OK, the last factor might not be too relevent.) But the most daunting task for me is to reflect upon myself. Then, to try to peek into the future. I would have to assess my capabilities in performing that topic. Some say that as long as you have interest, the rest would come along. I beg to differ. Some things are just not that simple. Easier said that done. Interest and capabilities do not come hand in hand. (I know that some would disagree with this, but I guess this is a personal opinion)
Study smart....not hard? i ponder...

Then, there is the part where an SSC topic would be a tiny teeny weeny point-size window to the field of medicine you might be in in the future. This is very scary...to picture myself as a doctor, that has been framed, obviously. But to imagine myself being a specialist..that's EEEEKS! Some people enter medicine already knowing what they want to do and where they want to go. I have always left that to the experience and exposure which I would be gaining in medical school...I have yet to accumulate enough of those to decide. I might have more interest in certain fields, but unfortunately, I cannot convince myself that I am geared for those demanding specialities.

One more significant impact to me: - a source of inspiration.
I do not know many practising doctors here well; what more, Malaysian doctors. It would be of great help to have a person to look up upon, to advice and to guide when needed. - hehe, shows how much (in) dependence I have! But then again, it is much of a booster when needed as I have realised in the past decade... (gosh, i'm OLD!) I guess my journey needs a fresher perspective and a new path.

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Do not follow where the path may lead
Go instead where there is no path
and leave a trail.

Ralph. W. Emerson
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