My 2008: Amazing ...holidays

Snippets of the best of 2008.



HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008



HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2008


INTERMEDIATES - DONE!


EASTER CYCLE WITH BUNCH OF NEWLY MET AND MADE FRIENDS =D


MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND - HAPPY BIRTHDAY BTW!



THE NEWCASTLE DEARIES :)




MY FANTABRILLOUSZING SUMMER ... NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE. *_*


BACK TO SCHOOL


MERRY CHRISTMAS!



A YEAR ENDING, OR A YEAR BEGINNING? THIS STRUCTURE DEPICTS IT ALL. :)

A flurry of alphabets.

Winter has made its presence remarkably felt this year.
There is only a day left for 2008. We shall soon be ushering 2009.
I have not placed up an entry for a few weeks now.
There is lots in my mind, especially emotions, that I would like to pitter patter out on my keyboard. Yet, I do not think that I have the sanity and am not thinking logically enough in order to do so. I am in a mess. Always have been at the year's end; but more so this year after what happened in recent weeks, and happening now.

I could not resist the temptation of only putting up an entry when I know what I would like to type about. Currently, it really is a flurry of words and sentences which my mind is processing.

I have been writing, fiddling and meddling about with stuff. Not so much drawing or sketching or painting, which I have done so in the past - boy, do I miss doing artwork; and then get angry and annoyed because I suck in art. And no thanks, this has been reminded time and time when I visit the Europe's capitals of art.

Anyway, back to what I said in the previous paragraph. I've been doing all those except for typing. Been browsing through website, reading nonsensical stuff, drifted away by news...I am really, just in a state of blankness.

Before I write up what's bothering, I shall just blog about what happen most recently. I went to celebrate a friend's birthday bash, which was really good. Nice to see people. Yet, felt a little disconnected. Perhaps it was the late-night factor. I hope it was anyway.

Then, I just got back from a short winter trip with 2 lovely friends and L~. That was nice. Sadly, I got a little cold, and might have caused L~ to be ill at the moment..when he should, really, be enjoying the best ending for 2008 with his badminton mates in Holland. I feel awful for causing him to be so ill. Yet, I am also clouded by an awful feeling of being alone...to end 2008. and to see 2009.

Should be doing work, prepare for exams. Not happening. My emotions are flurrying. Negative ones mostly. Yet, its really just fleeting and flurrying. Nothing in particular which are having a significant impact. The impact is the flurrying feint negatives. I hope you understand what I am trying to describe.

Have you ever...
Love somebody so much, yet still able to feel hurt;
Feel crushed when you can't make him smile and laugh as much;
Admire who he is when he's around his friends, yet;
Wonder why he isn't showing this side of him when he's with you;
Ponder on this confusion..and feel alone, lost.

There is a song i would like to post here, but its an old song, and i can't seem to find a clear clip to it.

Its called Open arms - by Journey.
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay.

Journey - Open Arms
Uploaded by jpdc11

People

I find human beings very intriguing. Just their actions and character alone have several fields of studies.

I think I need to learn how to not feel too bad if I cannot please everyone, especially if it is not my problem. The only thing I am handicapped with is how to approach someone who have ill thoughts/feelings towards me with all good intentions to patch things up. Worse still is when it was never my doing, and that this other person has a 'unique' personality. Why should I bother or let it affect me if it never was my fault right? It just affects me when I see people not happy about things or with myself. Therefore, I need to learn how not to be affected by the way some people are, and can be.

Really, it was not my doings at all. It's like you did absolutely nothing (with emphasis) and some people can just choose to be moody with you just because that's how they feel - moody!

At times, one can get pretty annoyed and angry and try to contain as much as possible so that whatever silly things which are going on would not be progressive.

Gosh, even typing this out is not very smooth.. I find it difficult trying to phrase sentences and choose apt words when it comes to matters like this. I do not want to impose an inaccurate impression, but at the same time, I am quite a direct person. That said, I respect, accept and appreciate directness towards me if anyone has this type of character.

Unlike some, I'm no hypocrite. Not this time at least.

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Unrelated song post:

The week that has been...

It has been a fruitful, fun-loaded weekend.

I am absolutely knackered now, with a slight throbbing headache, most probably due to the icy cold exposure of my head everyday on my way to class and can potentially just fall asleep right now.

Yet, I have this inclination to blog since I have not put up a written post in a while.

The past 2 weeks have been "catching up" week, since we have this thing called specialist clinical contact and therefore based in Cardiff. Met up with quite a few friends.

2 weekends ago, I was reunited with my 2nd year housemate from Germany. She was in Cardiff for a term, then off to Spain last year, and she's back in Germany now. She was around for a visit! And of course, she had to come back to Cardiff. It was nice to meet her. I do wish that we had more time to spend together and the opportunity to know each other more. Speaking of which, I've gotta go bug her for the few photos that we took a fortnight ago!

Then, last weekend, another housemate from 2nd year came down to Cardiff too. It was really lovely to have met up, and in a bigger group too. (I do not expect readers to remember that I have blogged about my housemates in 2nd year, and they comprised of 8 people!). It brought back many many sweet memories, and I do miss those times. I do not feel as engaged with friends as I have been in the past. Time is catching up isn't it? Ever realised that you're not as close with many friends as before; but instead close with only a few? Or perhaps it is me being anti-social. I seem to have been stunted with my growth - mentally, maturity of mind, behaviour wise.

Today, I went to see my housemate from 1st year! She's a wonderful person and I enjoy her company to bits. However, as we haven't been meeting up as frequent as we like, it does feel a bit funny on where to catch up from. I wish we had more time to get comfy...

Last night, I was deadly tired and went to bed just before 10pm... BEFORe 10pm! That's a record. And L~ called me after his badminton training. I was so fast asleep that when I woke up this morning, I did not have any recollection of the phone ringing, let alone speaking to him. I woke up this morning, thinking that he did not call or did not even leave me a message. Hehe. Apparently, I did pick up the phone, mumbled some stuff (not to be revealed here) and placed it back at the right spot on my filled shelf! My unconscious brain / coordination is amazing.

Ok, getting really tired now, and a long day ahead..and plans for work tonight seems to be failing, as usual. Yet, when I am more alive, I am an internet addict, and tv-drama-streaming addict.

All I really want now is for someone to teach me a bit on photography (I'm hopeless) and teman (I think the word sounds and feels nicer than 'accompany') me for a nice stroll somewhere and having similar interest, take photos together...and admire them at the end of the walk, at home, in bed, with a warm flask of hot chocolate, giggling away at silly shots.

*Perhaps I am dreaming*