I long to have a good chat. I know I have said this before in previous posts which I can't really be bothered to find and link it here. I couldn't sleep last night. Not sure of the reason, but probably psychological. I didn't want Saturday to come to an end like that. Back home, weekends are when I spend most of my time with the dearest of people around me. I had wished that I could do the same over here in UK, to have a stay-in and talk just about anything and everything the whole day. You feel loved and cared for all over. I guess when you didn't manage to do something that you long to, it's kinda of a *sigh*. And perhaps it was a rebellion or punishment against myself to stay awake. I have my exams coming up, and I want to spend the other half of my weekend doing some form of work.
As sad case as I can be, I texted/sms-ed a friend. Then a call came through. Not bad considering two people are sharing the same feeling of dullness. Only perhaps mine was a little more hurtful. Then again, what's not said doesn't mean it's not going on. It was a good break from the confused mind, albeit not long. Now, the messed up mind is still present. Will focus on this one lighter thing that happened to keep my mind away from heartbreaking thoughts.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
AHoy there!
hehe, i've watched pirates 3!!!!!!!
choi sun kor-kor, summer movies all coming out adieee!!! too bad tapah or bidor got no cinema. haih haih.
choi sun kor-kor, summer movies all coming out adieee!!! too bad tapah or bidor got no cinema. haih haih.
Friday, May 25, 2007
something something...
i blogged about my clinicals yesterday, and i must give credit to another doc. he was nice and kind to me. so the afternoon was good. as for today, i can confirm that one of the doc i am following is (as how LimKitSiang would say) an MCP.
on another note,
ever had something which makes you annoyed or sometimes go furious? and you can't do anything about it? ever felt cruelty and injustice on a social level? ever felt all clogged up wanting to burst out everything? ever felt lost love which makes you wonder why you're in love..and the uncertain future about it? is this insecurity? or lack of confidence? and if so, is the lack of confidence about you or in the other?
on another note,
ever had something which makes you annoyed or sometimes go furious? and you can't do anything about it? ever felt cruelty and injustice on a social level? ever felt all clogged up wanting to burst out everything? ever felt lost love which makes you wonder why you're in love..and the uncertain future about it? is this insecurity? or lack of confidence? and if so, is the lack of confidence about you or in the other?
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Cloudy murkish skies
The sky is cloudy and gray today. Here I am, at the hospital supposedly to be learning how to take patient history and learning clinical skills. I have managed to take a few patients' history for the past week. though not as many as another girl has. she is shadowing a grueling consultant. as for me, i have only seen my consultant ONCE and that was in his clinic for a couple of hours. i have told his team what is the purpose of me being here but yet, i have yet to learn much. i took my own initiative today and did learn a little more than normal. and surprisingly, the SHO i was shadowing talked to me more than normal. what i miss was the fifth year student who is supposed to be shadowing the SHOs too. he's a real cool fella. at least he speaks more! and i must say, he is much nicer to me than the others! i don't want to be a stereotype, but it's rather common, this fifth year is a HE. so usually HEs don't show their face all the time and stay around as long as they are supposed to. HEs are sometime rather smart too. it's not easy to gather the courage to skive off earlier than scheduled, but the HEs seem to be doing them rather easily. haha! but it's good to have a few around.
i should be walking around my ward asking for patients so that i can do a history on them. but really, i am more interested to be doing clinical examinations.
on a different note, i have learnt more about humans attitudes than anything clinical. not necessary patients, but hospital staff and fellow collegues as well. people have faces, and usually, more than one. sometimes, it takes a new setting/surrounding/conditions to let that person bring out that particular face. mmm* this is something that i guess everyone knows. but y'know...when it hits you, you feel it stronger than usual and thus have the inclination to blog about it like how i am doing now.
i'll be having my exams in 3 weeks time. It is going to be a torturous, hectic and busy month ahead. i hope that you'd pray for my wellbeing and that the days ahead would be good and easy.
and of course, after the exams, there are the holidays to look forward to. I'll be seeing him again soon..after such a long missing. and then, i'll be back in Malaysia! =D
i should be walking around my ward asking for patients so that i can do a history on them. but really, i am more interested to be doing clinical examinations.
on a different note, i have learnt more about humans attitudes than anything clinical. not necessary patients, but hospital staff and fellow collegues as well. people have faces, and usually, more than one. sometimes, it takes a new setting/surrounding/conditions to let that person bring out that particular face. mmm* this is something that i guess everyone knows. but y'know...when it hits you, you feel it stronger than usual and thus have the inclination to blog about it like how i am doing now.
i'll be having my exams in 3 weeks time. It is going to be a torturous, hectic and busy month ahead. i hope that you'd pray for my wellbeing and that the days ahead would be good and easy.
and of course, after the exams, there are the holidays to look forward to. I'll be seeing him again soon..after such a long missing. and then, i'll be back in Malaysia! =D
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Abyssmal..
What country are we living in? 3 main issues that have been highlighted over the past week were simply more evidence to reiterate that we are not heading towards a progressive nation. I am simply too tired to even present better arguements on these matters.
1.
Maybank issue - you'd probably find better arguements in political blogsites.
2.
Terengganu to make it easier for polygamous marriage - what da..?!?!?! just because the number of widowed women has increased in the state does not mean that one can loosen laws! (see..it's the damned "LAW" again. how manipulative it can be.) Any aspiring lawyers who put it in their applications that the Law, with a capital L, ordains governance of the people's rightful action should reThink. I mean, c'mon lar dude, show us statistics that polygamous marriages really consist of previously widowed women then only manipulate the law act-lah. If the act of marrying more than one to "help" the other woman is so noble, all the more that the consent of the first wife should be obtained! duhhhh* If it is legal as said so in your religion, your first wife have to accept since she most definitely would (have to) be the same religion as you are. Besides, you are meant to be responsible.
-i know some people might just say, "butt off. this is not your religion and has nothing to do with you." but i say, "scram you. at least i am aware and take the effort to understand what is happening to the people in my country. and people does not only mean beings of your race."-
3.
It never fails to amuse me how the 'bigger' leader you are, the less cow sense you have. All women should stand up and vote these people who have 'leaking' respect for their mothers, sisters, daughters, nieces and the community comprising of >50% females OFF! Some elected representatives give a different title to the place of assembly every Wednesday. Kids should be brought there, but do remind them not to bring peanuts in.
4.
Visit Malaysia Year 2007! Hooray! Let's ban one of the top football club having one of the widest worldwide fan base and recent EPL Champions from coming!
Now, I have to write a disclaimer here lest i be su-ed, again by the manipulative Law. All aforemention is bits of disappointment from a free-minder's point of view and in no way meant to do harm.
1.
Maybank issue - you'd probably find better arguements in political blogsites.
2.
Terengganu to make it easier for polygamous marriage - what da..?!?!?! just because the number of widowed women has increased in the state does not mean that one can loosen laws! (see..it's the damned "LAW" again. how manipulative it can be.) Any aspiring lawyers who put it in their applications that the Law, with a capital L, ordains governance of the people's rightful action should reThink. I mean, c'mon lar dude, show us statistics that polygamous marriages really consist of previously widowed women then only manipulate the law act-lah. If the act of marrying more than one to "help" the other woman is so noble, all the more that the consent of the first wife should be obtained! duhhhh* If it is legal as said so in your religion, your first wife have to accept since she most definitely would (have to) be the same religion as you are. Besides, you are meant to be responsible.
-i know some people might just say, "butt off. this is not your religion and has nothing to do with you." but i say, "scram you. at least i am aware and take the effort to understand what is happening to the people in my country. and people does not only mean beings of your race."-
3.
It never fails to amuse me how the 'bigger' leader you are, the less cow sense you have. All women should stand up and vote these people who have 'leaking' respect for their mothers, sisters, daughters, nieces and the community comprising of >50% females OFF! Some elected representatives give a different title to the place of assembly every Wednesday. Kids should be brought there, but do remind them not to bring peanuts in.
4.
Visit Malaysia Year 2007! Hooray! Let's ban one of the top football club having one of the widest worldwide fan base and recent EPL Champions from coming!
Now, I have to write a disclaimer here lest i be su-ed, again by the manipulative Law. All aforemention is bits of disappointment from a free-minder's point of view and in no way meant to do harm.
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