Racial Integration...what?

A Racial Integration study has been done by one of our local public varsity, and hey-ho! surprise, surprise...we are not 'racially integrated enough'!

Link: http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2007/3/29/nation/17225671&sec=nation&focus=1

Okay, perhaps it is rocket science to some that racial integration is not progressing forwards. That said, it would need hard evidence to show it and statistics to prove. Fine.

Who is surprised by this findings? Do I see any hands raised?

Duhhhh....From the tender age of 13 when the personality and character of youngsters are build up, a huge proportion of us (i.e. MALAYSIANS), but of a certain classification, enter boarding school, where I'd say, 95% or MORE are from the same group.

Then, for studies post-SPM (that's 5 years down the road), only a tiny fraction from a different group is allowed to "integrate" with the others. Gee, who is being segregated here? Okay, it's time to point fingers here, like how the norm has been conformed by society..*pointy-poke*

I have a friend who never had a friend from a different race since her schooling days. No prizes for guessing where she studied from. She was very happy and glad to finally be able to mix around with other races and have good friends (like me perhaps?) with a different background than herself. At this point, I am not sure if I should pity her and be glad that I didn't grow up in that sort of environment.

I dare say that I have a good balance of friends since childhood.

In a nutshell, this study just shows how we have managed to stab ourselves and lodge a report about it. (And in a more sarcastic saying, reaffirmed that we eat where we s**t, then complain it's disgusting...repeatedly)

Disclaimer: In case I get sued due to some weird unfathomable reason(s), allow me to explain that with all due respect, this little sarcastic entry is merely as it is. It shows that I AM CONCERNED about the racial integration in our country (add 2% to the study!).

My Longings..

I long to go to Spain and Portugal..

I long to go to Eastern Europe..

I do want to experience Disneyland..

I long for a nice intellectual debate, even just to witness it. ( I don't think I can jump into any debate seeing how back-tracked I am)

I long to regain concentration and motivation to study.


and yeah, I do miss seeing animals/pets, especially the aqua-pets

Itchy fingers

Ever had that feeling of wanting to disturb someone? ..Even though you know that he/she might be busy or occupied?

It does seem like a void has been created when the person you normally 'disturb' is away. It feels like the distance is increasing and you don't know what to do about it, lest you make things worse.

Sigh. I'm deprived. That might not be the most apt word, but I can't think of the right one at the moment. Yet, I know I have work in my hands. Still, it's different y'know. Things work hand in hand.

Long ago, I thought that "I love you" were just 3 word, was merely a phrase. I couldn't comprehend what the fuss was all about when some people 'hoo-hah'ed about it and magazines having questionaires asking readers when would be the best time/place, how many times have they said it..etc.

To express it and to have it expressed to you are different.

So, yeah, I now know.

*&#@ !!!!!!

WHy couldn't have the stuuuuupiak neuroscience lectures be done better ?!?!? and that the lecture notes be presented better?!?!

I don't often curse, but it seems as though this is the only way that I can express myself. I don't want to rant and dwell about my worries lest some ppl think that i seem self-absorbed and pretentious.

But yes, I am very tensed. Many would be able to relate, but few would really understand, if not, none.

I am sarcastic. I ridicule. Sue me.

I am..

I am a hopeless romantic with typical girl-ish thoughts of being swept off her feet by a knight in shining armour into a castle of pomp and splendour...

Well, suffice to say, to have those similar feelings and not actually the action mentioned above per se.

My Wonderful Weekend..

The weeks that have passed by seemed to have happened in a blink of the eye. I must say that I cannot remember anything within the lecture theatre and I sure do hope that it would not kill me in due time. I guess I have to build my defence now.

It was a nice weekend to look forward to after the last exam of the term. I cringe to know that after the Easter Holidays, the exams and workload are just gonna come crashing down on me. It will be 2 weeks before the holidays actually start, and here I am, worrying about school reopening post-holidays.

About the wonderful weekend...
It was ALL ENGLAND!!!!!! and yes, I had fulfilled yet one more dream. There are not many things in life that I would say I dream about; at least not those which remain in thyself for ages since childhood. As life takes a twist, experince create a change and ambitions evolve, it is something dear to have a dream unchanged. Thus, realising this was simply marvellous. Words cannot depict how it felt. I saw childhood figures live in flesh - Chandra Wijaya, Cheah Soon Kit, Rexy Mainaky, Tony Gunawan..and not-so-childhood figures like Lin Dan, Zhang Ning, etc.

Obtaining the tickets created quite a headache for me but it was all worthwhile. It had been in my mind for the year that has passed, and I was actively seeking for them for 3 months in advanced. I wanted them really badly. And it was really amazing that a friend understood how crucial it was to get me the tickets that I finally obtained them. Thank you for helping me realise my dream.

Yupz, KKK and BHeong won! And there were groups of Malaysian scattered around the arena cheering and echoing the "Malaysia Boleh" phrase ever so synonymous with our beloved country. It was one of those moments when I truly felt that all Malaysians came together in spirit to support fellow Malaysians. There were also shouts of the players' names individually...and I found it really cute that a friend shouted for Rexy! She used to be in Indonesia's badminton team. I think he truly deserves a cheer too! It was so amazing to the extent of 'terrifying' on how the players' game revolutionised to their benefit after Rexy talked to them during the interval. Simply.."wow".

Well, we did join the English cheer for their mixed doubles players as well in the semifinals and finals! I found that the team was truly impressive though secretly, due to personal reasons, I wanted the China team to win.

Ah, and a lucky star was shining upon me during the finals. When everyone else were inside watching the game go on, I was outside the National Indoor Arena (NIA) with a handful of others...and we "bumped" into the winning team!!! oh yes, KKK, BHeong and ...RexxxxY!!! Ooooh, and we did the human wave several times! hehe..

Well, that, was just a short quip about All England. There were more to the trip of course. Meeting up with fellow Cardiffians..linking up friends...and also meeting my collegemates. =) I had a very cordial host, and very inviting friends.

I wish that I had more time to spend around them, but the weekend again had to fly by.

Monday was tiring due to the much-filled weekend. Yet, I had to prepare myself for Tuesday! I went to an event hosted by the Welsh Government. It was Wales' national celebration for the Commonwealth Nations Day. I had to speak about issues relating to my country in concordance with the theme for this year - Promoting Difference: Respecting Understanding. They actually played a recording of the Queen's speech for this occasion. It was a recording because the actual date for this celebration was the 12th of March (Monday of the second week in March). I thought that issues could have been raised better and more efficiently, but overall, it was really good. Indeed a good breather and very refreshing for me. It certainly did remind me of the wonderful times I had addressing the public. Just that this time around, it wasn't just any other group of peers. The other speakers were each distinguished representatives for their own countries, selected to speak. Our speech were recoded and presided by 2 Welsh assembly members (Wales is a nation, so the assembly is like the parliment) and a Commonwealth -somebody. haha. I didn't know until yesterday, during one of my clinical lectures, that one of the assembly member who was there was the Deputy Health Minister of Wales. They were introduced on which party they were in and not ranks in the ministry.

Then, on Weds, I had a group presentation. It was only after all these that I could finally breathe air tempo andante. So much so that I couldn't sleep properly and did not want to do anything despite having lectures to catch up to - I skipped lectures for Tues to happen!- The feeling of uncomfortness lasted until today. I hope the weekend would be good for me. There are still quite a lot that I have to do and arrange.

*HuSh*

I think he's sleeping....
I like to watch him sleep...

It's a nice day to sleep...
and a nice time too...
Mid-evening, humid and cool,
freshness with raindrops
tippity tapping on the window sil...
Snuggled into the warmth of a comfy bed...

*HuggieS* & *pecks* to him who might be asleep..

~hush...~

Shiny shoes

An article which I read over theStar about polishing shoes brought back memories to me. Sadly, I can not seem to link the article here. I wonder what is wrong with the hyperlink.

It evoked memories where I was just a little girl - and not so little - looking at my dad polish his shoes. The way the author described how his dad polishes his shoes were exactly the same. I have nearly forgotten how it was done and it has been years since I last saw my dad polish his shoes. But like said, it evoked memories - the smell and sight are running through my thoughts, with me wanting to polish shoes. I do not see any other guys polishing shoes anymore. Perhaps at the age of 20, one does not do that since leather shoes are rarely worn by this age group. That said, it would be fascinating to see someone actually polishing his shoe - and not from the typical shoeshine tube. Speaking of which, I think I did see one tube of Kiwi shoe-shine in a housemate's room! =)

I wonder if anyone of my age group still polishes their shoes like me and my dad before..with the soft bristle brush, a small can/paste-like Kiwi polish and worned out singlet.

oh, and Asha Gill is currently having my dream job! *sigh...*

but perhaps not too...I'd like to do it on my own pace, own time, carefree...but who's gonna pay the bills? Can't have everything rite?

Dreams & Memories; Ironic

Dreams last for a long time...
Memories last forever..

...even after the person who created them has faded away.

I'm half alive
but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight...

Ironic - Alanis Morissette:
An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures
Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face
A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break

It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think
A little too ironic...and yeah I really do think...