It's one of those nights..

It's 5 minutes to 04:00. Yes, it is soon to be 4 AM and I should be tucked away comfortably in my bed. Yet, here I am very much awake with signs of insect flying near the laptop screen.

Perhaps it is the few sips of tea that I took just now, 6 hours ago. All caffeine should be gone by now don't you think? Perhaps I should use this opportunity of alertness to do my revision. Perhaps. Perhaps. Perhaps. I am rather thankful to have classes instead of self-studying. As all of you would have known by now, I need the drive to study. It's not like I cannot study on my own, but it is going to be tough. Sometimes, we just want to find the easy way out. Now, don't we all wish that could be the case. Then, reality pops out and whams you in the face. Wake Up Shu Li!!!

Unfortunately, it was someone else who was awaken.

It was just before midnight that I heard his voice over the voice message. He was so groggy that I could barely make out what he was saying 80% of the time! Tired as he was then, and knowing that as I have, I still called. At 3.45AM! Am I bad or what?! I called because I could not sleep! I called even though I knew he was sound asleep, most probably in Stage 5 REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep. I thought, "Would I be doing him a favour by waking him up during the last REM sleep so that he could go back into SWS (slow wave sleep) and thenceforth p.o.s.s.i.b.l.y. get an overall better sleep?".

So, at 3.45, the most wonderful voice was heard. Nope, he was not shouting, netiher was he ignoring. He was sweet, gentle and caring. He said that he did not mind, because it was my voice he was hearing. Isn't that sweet! (Can I do it again? =P) I know he was trying his best to stay awake, listening to what I have to say and to respond, albeit with lesser-than-normal sense. Every word that came out during that call seeped into the deepest chamber of my heart.

I love you L~

My heart goes out...for the eastern

Eeks, I wonder what is wrong with this blog post. I cannot seem to change my type of font or it’s colour.

It’s a good Saturday morning. The sun is semi-bright, just the way I like it, and the air is beautifully cool. Simply perfect. Yet, here I am, bent at my knees, typing away a blog whilst stealing a few peers of the wonderful day outside the window. I must go out today. Yet, as determined as I am, I want to at least do some work first before I go out. Then again, as lazy as I ever can be, this form of ‘punishment’ does not work. I’m such a procrastinator. I must do work! I must do work! I must do work!

In the meantime, current fav website (which I am fervently browsing at the moment):

National Geographic – the stories on eastern Europe in particular

white moustache

Lidl's semi-skimmed milk is one of my favs. But today, it doesn't taste as nice. Mebbe tak cukup lapuk yet.

Raindrops

I normally bathe with the shower dial at 4. Usually, 5 was too hot for me. Today, it was at 7. The hot water came splashing down on me, slapping my face partially covered by my hair. A cloud of mist appeared around me in the shower pod. I felt my not-very-enviable skin being gently scalded, yet I wanted to turn the heat dial higher. I cupped my palms around my ears, listening to the water fall from the shower head like heavy rain. It brought me back to yesteryears remembering when was the last time I did like that back home. It also reminded me of being in the car while the heavy rain poured. I miss being in a car. I created a lather in my hair and let it run down my face. I picked up my bath crème and slapped it across my body, then gently spreading it. The perfume of the shower cream evoked senses and memories. It’s odd how these toiletries’ scent can bring me back to days when I first used it. I turned the shower on again. I didn’t know why, but I just stood still letting the water rush down along with the soapy bubbles. My mind was dense, like a virgin forest. But this forest did not have any animals gleefully strolling or leaping about, or birds chirping, or flowers waving to the wind. The hot water was making my skin tight, drying my skin of it’s natural oils and damaging it further. It is already rather flaky. I didn’t seem to care. After a while, I turned the shower off. I need fresh air to breathe.

So you think you know me eh?

Wow! hehe, I am guessing that LCY is my dear dear ol' girlfriend back from heydays! right? i can only come up with that guess since L CY seem to have scored quite well!

my dearest choi-sn kor kor....lei mei thang kor ngo kong kwong tong wa meh?

well, i thought the questions that i posted were rather easy! Most from my past, probably that's why some could score rather well. nothing revealing. hehe.

I'm actually 163cm or at times, 163.5cm. I just like to think that I'm 164. hehe.

I love sports. Sports are cool. If only I had kakis to play with. GOoooo Badminton!!

Why sunflowers? I don't know. I just like them, and a few others too of course! just that that question was a give-away. I would think that most of you could relate that to me.

Mom's canto, Dad's hokkien.

My pets..ah, since 1996. a pair of tortoises. One went away a few years back..and i cried my eyes out. I was in pain. I am in despair each time I think about it. My poor darling..I wonder how's it doing now.

I love my birthday date. It's a good date. =) 17th Sept

Italy was a dream place to go, and I have yet to travelled it all yet. I plan to. France was gastronomic.*YUM*

Trick Question this was - what do i do when i am bored. my housemates would say that i cook. My friends would say that i chat. I do both! hehe, just that when i posted that Q, it was the exam period and i didn't want to disturb my friends studying.

HAHA! many got this wrong! DESSERT is my fav dish?? hehehe..well, it is! but i LOVE SEAFOOD tooooo!!!! aargghhh..i am torn between two loved ones.

*_* i treasure writings be in in the form of cards, letters, notes or postcards. they hold a dear place in my heart. My pillow is my closest companion and photos are memories etched forever...(on glossy paper)

Create your own Friend Test here

Smiles from Malaysia to Britain.., from me to you.

There's a gift I'd like to give you
That can't be bought or sold
A ray of sunshine across the waters
That comes straight from the soul

Let us join our hands together
To bind the colours of our skin
A rainbow under GOD's Great heaven
A sign that love will always win

One thousand million smiles
I bring to you across the miles
In my land of sunshine
Or in your land of snow
Makes no difference where you are
If you let your feeling show

One thousand million ways
To love each other every day
For the poet and the old man
For the mother and the child
These One thousand million smiles

If the world is full of sorrow
Then what's the meaning of life
If war's the master of the house
And hunger is his wife ooo...

But a shining bridge of lovin' smiles
And tender helping hands
Will bind all men on earth together
And will forever stand


One thousand million smiles
I bring toy across the miles
In my land of sunshine
Or in your land of snow
Makes no difference where you are
If you let your feeling show

One thousand million ways
To love each other every day
For the poet and the old man F
or the mother and the child
These One thousand million smiles

One thousand million ways
To love each other every day
For the poet and the old man
For the mother and the child
These One thousand million smiles

So here! Stand with heart in hand
I bring this gift from my homeland
So take these smiles and sweets hellos
Keep then in your heart where ever you may go


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these past few days, these songs express the best.

sometimes some things just aren't enough

Now, I don't wanna lose you
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side

And I don't wanna hate you
and I don't wanna take you
but I don't wanna be the one to cry

Now it don't really matter to anyone anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody to much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
Or I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall

Yes, I may have hurt you,
but I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all

Makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
Like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But There's a danger in loving someone too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
Where it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
And Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

There's a danger in loving someone too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

I am blessed to have you..

Yesterday I chatted with my uncle online. He called over Skype, but I had to turn down the call because my computer seriously lags if I talk over Skype. It was a little odd to be chatting with my uncle, I mean, I have chatted with uncles and aunts and cousins before over the internet but just occasionally. And though this was rather odd, it was nonetheless very much welcomed and warm.

This chat also burned the flame of my interest even stronger. Sometimes, I do wonder if I am in the right profession. Don't get me wrong, I do still want to study medicine. Yet, I see it somewhat as a "limitation" for me to pursue my side interests and hobbies. I would not have much time to travel and the opportunities to work abroad or being assigned to different countries by the company would be nil. I even feel it now, having lesser holiday periods compared to my non medic friends.

We'll see how things will turn out...

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Lesson of yesterday:

Don't forget to tell your loved ones that you love them. Never assume that they know. Even if they do, it's always nice to hear. The feeling is different.

Eduction

lesson for today:

It's not wise to speak your mind. It is better to hold back thoughts. You'll find out that your frankness will be used against you and hurt you. It does not pay to speak your mind.
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it is difficult to change when you've been used to saying things all openly, but bear in mind, that the person you thought would see it that way might just change his mind. Your ways, especially negative ones, will be used against you and assumptions about you will be made based on that. People have an eye for the bad, sometimes even, the person you care most.

Some things that you hope is just a passing, sticks on forever, even when they have said that it is over and done with.

Evocation

Y'know, it is usually incidences or worst, tragedies, that make you realise many things. How important a person is to you for instance; or how supportive people around you have been without you giving much appreciation or realization.

Something occured in the news today and created headlines throughout the world. It affected me, in a personal thorough way. It made me think and it provoked emotions. I created "what ifs" in my mind.

I'm glad that my friend is safe. I really am.

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Lesson for the day:
Cherish the good time and sweet moments you had, even if the person you shared with is no longer the same.

Back in Cardiff

I wish I didn't have to come back. I wish I had been up somewhere north in someone else's place. I feel .... bored. the warm weather is not helping at all. I am just stoned. I have an exam coming round the corner, but all i want to do is wake up with no worries and having exciting and interesting things in stored for me...just like the weeks which have gone by too quickly.

I feel a sudden void now.

The not-so-distant future is so vague. When will I be able to fill that void?

la note' si vou plait?

It says here nouveau message as i click the link to submit a new entry.

hehe, french is widely use in this country, and i think in quite a number of european countries.
i am currently in a place/country where it claims to have the best fries in the world!!!! hehe, and if you don't know where that is, allow me to lead you in to a second hint -- world famous place for it's beers with over 200 types produced! ah, and if that still has yet to ring any bell, this should be the ultimate 75 tonnes bells at one of the local churches resonating into your auditory canal -- the best chocolate hails from here. now, do you have any idea where that is?

=D

yupps, that's where i am at now.

i don't want to spend all my time here as i would definitely blog lightly about this when i get home. but i am having the mood to blog away from 'home'. And, since i am using the internet from this hostel, i shall blog about it.

i am staying at 2go4 hostel. it is newly renovated with a groovy common area. it provides a kitchen with good facilities..and so, i assume that is their excuse of not including breakfast in the fees. i do love a good breakfast when i travel! it sustains me rather well! oh, back to the hostel. i believe that they have increased their price compared to last summer because of the renovation. it is indeed very clean looking and rather comfy.

in my opinion, being the semi-frequent hostellier, i wouldn't come here! it's rather pricey compared to other hostels, though i would say that it is moderate given it's newly refurbished place. yet, i rather pay a lower price of semi-clean, funky (note: not groovy) place with a hearty breakfast and laid back atmosphere. i didn't make full use of the hostel, but if you are planning to cook when you travel, i'd think that this would be a decent place..as said before, utensils and electrical items and new here. there are a couple of plasma screen tvs and the comp monitors are flat too. i do enjoy the clean toilets though.

all in all, never a second do i regret coming here, but yet, open minded enough to realise that options are available to suit your taste.....if you book early. ;)

and i have good company. *smiles*