Simplicity

Simplicity...is what I yearn for.

Amongst many other things, not appropriate to be disclosed here.

But that's the basis. Simplicity. If only I can find its counterpoint.

To shuly: please stop thinking of all the nonsensical thoughts..;
And,
Don't be frightened..

You lied.
I cried.

"Immensurebility"

In the midst of time, tide and the passing of moments, yet another of many thoughts was triggered. And I am writing this because I had a second trigger. Thus, although being a sceptical person, I think it is a sign that I should reinstate it. I have a diary that I do keep for myself and it is probably a better thing to do than to announce to the world these thoughts of mine. Yet, I think typing is faster - I can type pretty fast apparently. This was surprising as it was said by different people in a matter of a couple of days! Besides, I can refer to my archives easily.

People change. There may be some things in us which are innate and untouchable, cannot be changed nor dented. Yet, many of us jump to the conclusion that a person wouldn't ever change. If you know a friend for 10 years, you think you know him/her well. You know their bad habits, you know what they like, you know what they detest, you know how to approach them and how not to anger them. But can you assume that that person would react similarly in the present as he/she would have done so in the past?

I believe that people can change. We are all ever-changing. Time and experience change a lot of things, especially those which had an immense impact. Some change for the better, some for the worse; but it will be ongoing.

Assumptions can only go a certain distance.

Question is, can you accept that change and believe in the (desire to) change of the OTHER person?

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~..Back when I was a child,
before life removed all the innocence..~

Title-less

To those of you interested in finding out what others are up to in their lives, and particularly mine - since you're at my blog's page! :

1. Its been freezing cold!
2. Week's been awesome! And STILL ongoing.
3. A tinge of fear for enjoyment did not equate work.
4. Can't wait for the postman to come by! =D - if u're close with me, you'll know how much I ADORE mail. And i'm expecting one! *happyness*
5. Becoming more impromptu with life.
6. Books! Not a reader, but has quite a few in line.
7. Procrastination of what needs to be done vs what I chose to do. =P
8. Never been so excited over life in such a distance.
9. A trace of the diminishing, because I am only human
10. I'd love a smile from you who's reading.

i wanna kiss all my friends!

Tick-Tock

I had a good weekend.
And it is not to end with the start of the week.
I shall be the determinant of that imminent occurrence.
And this shall be a testimony to that statement.


~Fight for me in this battlefield of love,
And we'll run to our secret getaway..~

The Third Law

I learnt something valuable over the past 2 days. I was upset by a past memory and speaking to a friend made me realise a few things.

Who do you turn to when you need someone?

Friends can be there for you, but they are not required to. It is their choice whether or not they want to be there for you. They do not have a responsibility or obligation to be there for you. This is not a new revelation but it was a reinstatment. And I thank this friend who was there for me, deeply.

You’re on your own, most of the time. But yet, you’re never really alone. I am one who believes in what comes around goes around. Do not do unto others what you don’t want to be done unto you. Be true to yourself. Don’t expect someone to treat you perfectly when you’re full of imperfections. Cherish and appreciate those who stick to you through your flaws and valuing your strengths. But this would only go until a certain extent because if you refuse to acknowledge and recognise serious flaws even when it is put in front you, you are not going to go far and neither would the people close to you. I've learnt it the hard way. Respect what others have to say but you don’t have to take everything on board. Whoever said that they are right all the time?

There are many people whom I have come across in my short life and learnt so much from them. The crazy laughter that they induced will never be forgotten. I want to forget the deep hurt that I have experienced or make it into something better. At times, I think it was to protect myself and thus I have translated that into hatred. Yet, there is an opposite end involved too. I hope I am able to grow away and out of certain issues. I would like to face my future in a more positive manner.
The best thing I learnt yesterday, was that after all the whining and grumblings, the tears and cries, is that, what can be LEARNT from them?

This again, is taken with a pinch of salt. Nothing is ever completely or perfectly right. Sometimes, we are allowed to do things without reasons.

People can put up a strong front. The stronger you think someone is, don’t forget about Newton’s Third law. There is an equally strong opposing force. When you are in admiration of someone strong, don’t forget the unseen opposing force that he/she is facing.

I hurt my finger today, and I am unable to use it. But God has blessed me with 9 others which are now compensating for that lost of usage. We adapt, we learn, and the other fingers will grow stronger until that affected one is healed and together, they will be back to normal, in fact, perhaps stronger than before.

Boston, Massachusetts - Sept 2009

So what..

If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were.
-K. Gibran-

What if you love somebody..and let them go, but both parties were too proud , or scared, to return to each other?
Isn't that akin to lost love... that it is present, but never came back to the same meeting point.

Would it be true love if it only applies to one?
And then, they say,
True love is your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another.

When should you open up and give yourself that chance?...especially when you've been hurt, ever so badly?

The offsprings..

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.
-Khalil Gibran-

Hyped over and out!

Ok, here's what we're gonna do when I get back!

WK: If u cannot come out, I will bring a bucket of KFC for the two of us. My bike's tyre punctured..so "SFC" might have to do. Will see.

Alan + WK: If Alan is around, I hope he still has some booze! If not, I'll go hunt for some good ones and u guys can come over and gather at my place!

Lav: We rock! No plans needed. Haha!

CS and co.: Yum Cha sometime? Sorry man, Man Utd game is a bit too rushed! Looking fwd for AE tho! =D

Maha: Will cook up some really saucy stuff in line with our latest conversation themes! HAHAHHAA!!

ZLi: Hope u've booked the courts! If not, lemme know!

G,A,N et al.: Card/board games all aboard!

RR: Coffee + cake and everything sinful! ..cuz we're too angelic ;)

A: A chill-out meal perhaps?

Everyone: Pubs, Rooms, Pillows!..ICE SKATING??!

Side note:
I have so much to learn in life, so much to catch up on, so much to experience.. I yearn for the opportunity. Sigh.

What's in a name of "Professionalism"?

In a recent article published in the BMJ, a survey was done on how patients and medical professionals (namely doctors) view professionalism. One aspect which was surveyed was behaviour, and the other, dress code.

As medical students, it is part of our conduct and requirement to 'dress appropriately and professionally'. However, in this survey, it was found out that many patients are not as bothered to the doc's dresscode but rather, their behaviour in itself.

Yet, I struggle to comprehend. We live in a society where first impression matters, unfortunately, but acceptable. Perhaps we were told to dress professionally and thus allmost all doctors and medical students alike would dress adequately to the medical school's satisfaction. Lack of public's exposure to these misdemeanours might just cause the public to care less. What you see is what you get ain't it? If you are unable to see anything bad happening, it will not disturb you thus you'll not put it according to importance. Generally that is, in the wide scheme of event.

Secondly, earning gap between female and male doctors. Sexism is all over the place. Some for the right reasons, some not. I believe in acknowledging and respecting differences. :)

Sometimes, I don't understand why so many doctors would want to work part time, and mind you, medical students yet to graduate are planning to do so! This part time hoolah is to the extend of coming in twice a week, for a few hours. Is this because you're in a position where you can demand to be paid and the supply is conveniently there? What's the story here? You want the job as to provide healthcare, or is earning comfortably and sufficiently are suffice for your likings? On top of this part-time jobs are holidays and leaves in between. Perhaps i am being cynical towards non-committal doctors. Perhaps I am just not a wife, or mother yet. But I know I am a medical student and it has already impaired my learning.

3rd issue. To what extend do we need to practice evidence and statistic based medicine?
Evidence change all the time. No statistics are perfect. There are too many confounding factors. Yet, we need them in order to claim that we are doing 'good practise'.
Well, I think that's good in a way because we need to think and consider what's best. Hoorah, we're using our brains than merely following guidelines! :D I'm lazy. I'll just follow, for now. I tried reasoning out these good practices and found the literature too confusing for me to think about. Its like ... YouTube! One link links you to another relatively relevent one and another and another and by then, you've spent so much time, seen so much, yet, only able to remember minor details of each..unless its interesting. *D

Everything needs to be taken with a pinch of salt. Perhaps these days, we need to take a heaped tablespoonful instead.

Educational psychologists suggest that to acquire elite levels of expertise, in any field, requires about 10000 hrs of practice. Given that surgery requires both cognitive and manual skills, you kinda have to double that (says them - I shall remain humble and quiet since the word 'interest in surgery' is mildly ostracized [talk about the confound of irony!] in non-surgical fields). MPs are not going to change the law, which once accepted isn't easy of course - on top of it being a whole continent's! Back to evidence and statistics: Hard evidence need to be provided to support the claims of threatened patient safety in lieu of the EWTD. Indeed, doctors need to be given some life beyond work. That said, some of us really got no life, and work is our life. And wouldn't you agree that a nation who champions on human rights should give a right for people like these a CHOICE to work and contribute to the healthcare? Back when America reduced their doctors' working hours, there were rejections from several groups! The reduction? It was to bring the work hours down to 80hrs weekly! Oh, how interesting this is! I am just going to have a cuppa, get naked, tuck myself under my 100% blended Egyptian cotton with 500 threadcounts sheets, get a book out, or a man by my side and enjoy life. HAH!

We all use evidence nowadays to back our truth (except in certain countries - haha). Very good practice. I live in wards (mori)bound to definitions, guidelines and requirements made by others (hopefully in my best interest, and the patients of course - they deserve it). I follow, of course, but I have to admit, sometimes, I cannot fully reason out why. Also, I realise that I have failed to grasp the basics of physiology and pharmacology. Who's fault? Mine! ... I hope to improve.

And yes, perhaps surgeons are close to God, because 80hrs weekly (official) for 5years = 20800hrs can be replaced by 48hrs weekly (official) for 5 years = 12480hrs, for the similar end product.

Oh, and btw, a magazine printed on 100% recycled paper = good and environmental friendly rite? Caveat: "except for the front page". So, one has to manually remove the front page before being able to recycle it? I wonder what is the volume of BMJs published per issue. And, I am assuming that recycled paper be recycled again. Can it?

Peddling life.. it's a cycle.

I think the life cycle is all backwards.
You should all die first.
Start out dead and get it out of the way
Then, you wake up in an old age home,
Feeling better everyday

You get kicked out for being too healthy,
Go and collect your pension
Then when you start work
You get a gold watch on your first day.

You work 40 years,
Until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement,
You drink alcohol, you party
You’re generally promiscuous

And you get ready for high school
You go to primary school, you become a kid
You play, you have no responsibilities
You become a baby.

You spend your last 9 months floating peacefully in luxury
In spa like conditions, central heating
Room service on tap, larger quantities every day
And finally
You finish off as an orgasm.

Blasé

The ups of Ups, and lows of Lows..

Blasé.

A reminder...

I don't know what led to this train of thoughts, but they're definitely not directed to anyone, nor to myself. Perhaps indirectly, to myself. I can't be certain.

Try not just criticise as though you know more than another person.
Giving negative comments do not improve any outcome.
If you so wish to reprimand someone about their idea/thoughts/actions, do so with educational input. Your thoughts are yours alone and if u like to share it with another, make sure there is an impact - provide logical reasons etc. Do not repel if u wish to influence.
Support and understand why first.

People are all different and indifferent.
You might have your own ways to do things, and they might have theirs. And when these two do not come together cohesively, understand this and come to a standpoint where both are acceptable. Let it go if you think its not worth the negative emotions. Take your time in that too, but not too long, afterall, like previously said, its not worth it. Some minor issues can be considered as artifacts of life. See the bigger picture.

I'm taking the positives, learning from the lesser ones and brushing over the negatives. :)

p/s: i am such a shy person!